one and only

Its so hard watching the one you love stumble and get shoved… its so painful watching the lost look on his face… wishing you could just reach out… its even worse knowing you’re part of the problem… I don’t know whats happening with us, but I hurt him, bad, and I didn’t even mean to… and he still won’t really give me the details… but I know that I don’t remember ANYTHING… he thinks I was trying to manipulate him… or something…. but i honestly don’t even think my level of brain function was that sophisticated atm… I just want him so bad… i want to be his, i want to belong to him like property, i want to be inhabited by him, i want to live and breathe him, i want our skin to meld into each other… I never want to leave his side, or his bed… I’ve never felt this way about anyone… and it HURTS cause I KNOW he’ll never love me… and he;s tried… he really has… and he just can’t… so my head says move on, let it go, get over it… but my heart says… NEVER… I’ll always always always love him.

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